Selena Gomez has admitted that the medicine she uses to treat her bipolar disorder makes it unlikely that she will be able to get pregnant (carry her own children).
Before the premiere of her new documentary My Mind and Me, she gave a wide-ranging, unvarnished interview to Rolling Stone in which she stated, “That’s a very huge, large, current thing in my life.”
However, the actress believes ‘however I’m meant to have them, I will.’
The sad conclusion, according to Selena, 30, weighed on her after she visited a friend who was trying to create a family. She started sobbing in her car after their meeting.
According to WebMD, taking specific bipolar drugs while pregnant increases the chance of birth abnormalities in the first trimester.
Potential flaws include heart defects, developmental delays, and neurobehavioral issues in addition to neural tube anomalies.
In a lengthy interview with Rolling Stone, Selena was up about her struggles with mental illness.
The actress admitted that while struggling with psychosis, which resulted in her being given a bipolar disorder diagnosis, she had thought about suicide for a number of years.
‘I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there,’ she told the publication, noting she had never attempted suicide.
Selena revealed she had been to four treatment centers amid her mental health battle.
At times, she felt convinced she needed to purchase a new car for everyone she knew – a symptom of mania.
‘I have a gift and I wanted to share it with people,’ she told the publication of her thought process at the time.
In describing her lows, Selena said she sometimes spent weeks in bed.
‘It would start with depression, then it would go into isolation,’ she said.
‘Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed. I didn’t want anyone to talk to me. My friends would bring me food because they love me, but none of us knew what it was.
Sometimes it was weeks I’d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath.’
Selena thinks several factors led to her anguish, including her career, her health, and not reaching certain life goals she had set out for herself as a young girl.
‘I grew up thinking I would be married at 25,’ she told Rolling Stone. ‘It wrecked me that I was nowhere near that — couldn’t be farther from it. It was so stupid, but I really thought my world was over.’
She also struggled to vocalize her issues with friends who weren’t famous, and admitted to feeling like an outsider amongst the cool celebrities.
‘I never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities. My only friend in the industry really is Taylor [Swift], so I remember feeling like I didn’t belong. I felt the presence of everyone around me living full lives. I had this position, and I was really happy, but … was I? Do these materialistic things make me happy?’ she said.
